Weekend Recap

Happy MAY 2-4 Weekend 

Friday: TGIF: another week filled up at work, i feel mentally, physically and emotionally drained..

Mentally because of all the information I'm getting at work, only on day 12 yet, have 35 days in training, then 2 weeks actually job shadowing, its good though.

Physically because i had another treatment today, this one was much worst then the first one, the nurse was super sweet to me though. I brought a book with  me to read, because once it is done, u have to lay still for 30 mins to make sure it does its thing, well i dropped my book on the floor and the nurse was done so she was gone out for me to rest, so my book didn't get read :p

Emotionally: I really get emotional more so lately then ever before, i don't know what it is.. maybe because i am so tired all the time, i find if I'm tired I'm moody and emotional, that could be what it is.

I came home from the treatment and had to give in and rest, hubby made ribs on the BBQ for dinner, i slept for 2 hours then i got up and ate... really didn't do much at all on Friday night.  Watched some big brother reruns and some 90210

Saturday: Brooke and Daddy went geocaching for the day. So I wanted to do something fun, but i also needed to clean my house.....so i text my new friend Amy to hang out....she came over while i cleaned, i took a shower then we headed out for our adventure...

I wanted to find some "Fredericton" souvenirs for my Cara box friend this month. no luck, it is hard to find anything here...until the tourist season, i couldn't believe it, so now i need to find another idea for her. 

We also went to the Farmers market ( held every weekend here), i love the market, it is so awesome. Look at the awesome lunches we got

Amy's lunch and she got a hot dog tornado 

Mine was a potato tornado

So awesomely good. 

It was home fries on a stick to be truthful and yet it was so delicious. 

We shopped around at market....it was fun.

Then we went to the library and got some books, went to a souvenir store, then to a grocery store.

We grilled and Amy ate with us, was so much fun with her today  

Sunday:

After Sunday School, we mowed the lawn, well hubby did and i took a mini nap because Sunday School exhausts me. at 4:30 pm 

We went to our annual youth convention and a mini getaway :)

here is my girl in the foyer of the church/hotel:

There was over 1000 young people there. The speaker was Rev Staten, he challenged our young people to be different and not give in to worldly pleasures that can seem so enticing to them, it was a great service.

After service we went with friends to McDonalds for a snack, chatted a bit then went back to our friends where we stayed last night.

For the first in a very long time, I slept like a baby, I was so exhausted and my body keeps yelling at me to get some more rest, I just can't sleep well...

Near the hotel we shad service at.. gorgeous city 

Brooke with her friend Erika, those two play so well 

cting silly 

Monday - its our May 24th weekend here which means no work or school, so we hung out for a bit with Katie and Nathan and then went to see my aunt who I haven't seen in 20 years- was an awesome time to see her again.

We then had to stop by a pharmacy bc Brooke had a toothache and no dentist open today, so thankfully a good pharmacist recommended some stuff and she is feeling better now. She can see the dentist tomorrow.

My Brothers girlfriend just graduated from university, so proud of Julia, she is such a wonderful girl, graduated from Arts. 

here is my brother with her, they look so cute. Love ya both <3 

 

Back to work and school tomorrow. I have a busy week coming up. 

Wednesday for Women had a wonderful first week, got so many compliments on the wonderful idea to begin this for women, this week we have a guest so make sure to come by and read what she has to say :) 

Cheers <3 

wednesdays for women

Wednesdays are for Women( to encourage and uplift) 

THE POWER OF WORDS You can tell where people are from by how they talk, some people have an accent while some people may be difficult to understand them... but it dont matter as long as our words are uplifting and encouraging.  We’re a royal priesthood.  I want the accent of heaven thick on my speech! Faith pleases God. Complaining deeply pains Him. I want an ATTITUDE of GRATITUDE. When we've got a spirit of complaining, we'll complain even when God moves! Example: we need a new house.  God gives you a new house.  Now...we got to clean it! THE SPIRIT OF THE WORLD IS UNGRATEFULNESS Nearly every day we hear someone say, "________ sucks!"  This thinking leads to places we don't want to go. At any given time, I am one minute away from depression." GUARD YOUR HEARTS AND YOUR MINDS  What is going on in our heart will come out when we open the spout. COMPLAINING  gives the enemy a "sphere” (a place, a license) of influence in our lives.   It will affect us emotionally. PRAISE  is the constant atmosphere of His people. Take off the spirit of heaviness and replace with a garment of praise!  Shake off complaining.  It doesn't fit anymore. You can speak words that take the life right out of someone OR speak words that put darkness to flight!  Ephesians 3:21 EN-COURAGE:  put courage into someone DIS-COURAGE:  take courage out of someone God is concerned about the way we talk TO and ABOUT one another, it's a major stronghold the words that come out of your mouth will defile you! OUR WORDS ARE LIKE SPARKS THAT CAN SET A WHOLE FOREST ON FIRE. Don’t pollute other people with your mouth! (Slander, tale-bearing, evil speaking, gossip). Psalm. 39:1 “I will watch my ways & keep my tongue from sin.  i will put a muzzle on my mouth." Psalm. 141:3 “set a guard over my mouth, o Lord & keep watch over the doors of my lips." Ecclesiastes. 5:2,3  "do not be quick with your mouth."  "Let my words be few." Words can set all kinds of things into motion, when you slander someone, you "lock" them in....DOOM them, the things we talk about most.....we magnify, the things we talk about least.....we minimize! When Jesus is magnified, our problems are minimized! LOVE covers a multitude of sins.   I Peter 4:8    LOVE builds people up!

Bitter or Better

Wednesdays are for Women ( to encourage and uplift). I will have guest bloggers post here from time to time and if you are interested in being agues, please get in touch with me and i would love to have you visit terrigrothe@gmail.com

Today's topic is: 

The Webster definition of bitterness is:

Bitterness : resentment, a feeling of deep and bitter anger and ill will 

Matthew 6:14-15 

For if you forgive others their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you, but if you do not forgive others their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.

When you choose to be better and not bitter- you feel happier, your outlook on life will change, they say positivity breeds positivity.
So if you feel a bitterness against someone whether it be your co worker, your best friend, your sister, mother, friend, pastor, pastors wife- let it go, ask Jesus to make you better and to take the bitterness away. I know some people say well if this happened to you, you would feel this way as well, and you are right, but we have to let bitterness go and we need to have Jesus mold us, shape us and make us better. I am glad to say that we are friends again now and i am glad the past is forgotten, but because we are human, we do think about these things many times, yet we need to learn to let them go. 

Ephesians 4:31-32 Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice. Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.

Are you Bitter or Better? 

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Guest posting :)

Terri,

I would like to thank you for considering my post. This post is about me wanting to be "Invisamom", just desperately wanting a little "ME" time. Something as just taking a shower, actually eating and finishing a warm plate, has now become a luxury to me. Thanks for letting me share my story.

Invisible Mommy

I want to disappear sometimes. I really really do. Like a good old magic trick. Abra Cadabra! *poof* mommy's gone.....

It's so hard being a single parent. The lack of a companion that can help isn't there. I eat, breathe, shit, sleep, my son. I mean I don't mind it but at times I just want a break. F- that, I NEED a break! I love my darling baby. I really really do but there are times when he gets into his whiny mode (oh for the love of God, I hate the noise he makes) drives me crazy!. Maybe because one of my biggest pet peeves is WHINING! And he does it sometimes and its like OMG get me out of here! (that's where my disappearing act would come into effect).

When he whines, he's usually wants something. So since we do not speak the same language, I try my best to figure out what he wants. When all has failed and he doesn't want anything I suggested I feel defeated. Like, I have no clue as to what he wants. I know he is teething so I comfort myself with that answer. But his teeth has been coming in for a while now and he hasn't been a grump. I guess I am comparing him to other babies because I hear some not so pleasant stories about teething. And here is mine, just chilling, with a few whines here and there. I feel so awful when I get upset with him because I don't know what to do for him. I feel like a bad parent getting mad at him. I mean, how can I get mad at my sunshine? My little monkey, my baba, my first true love. He doesn't mean any harm. But yet, knowing all these things, I still get frustrated.

I sometimes wish his father was around during times like this because I need a breather. Just a cool, calm, collective moment to gain my sanity back. Even though I know his father won't be around, I just wish I had someone I can hand him off too time to time. There are times when he is in his crib or playpen and he goes into that mode that I hide behind the couch or under my blanket so he won't see me. I sometime stop dead in my tracks and stand there as if I am suddenly going to disappear. I know, that sounds soo awful! Please don't call child protective service on me, I really and truly love my son. I just hide for a little. 2-3 minutes tops! I wait to see if he will stop. If not then I go get him and see what he wants. Most time he just wants me and then the guilt kicks in. How could I leave him in there for 2 minutes when all he wants is his mommy. I don't know, maybe it's just me and a first time mommy thing. I'm still learning the ropes and trying my best when it comes to Archer. When he sleeps during the night, I stare at him and reflect about our day together and smile and then the 1 or 2 times I play invisamom makes me frown. I just want what's best for my son you know? I know I can give him things but sometimes I feel like I can't. How can 1 parent do everything? I'm still figuring it out. It's hard, very hard. I think I need to have more confidence in myself that I am prepared and can do it. This is just a random question and this goes for single parents and coupled parents do you guys ever feel that way? I'm starting to feel like a bad mom during those whiny moments.

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Weekend Recap

Friday: Worked til 2:15 ( we get off early every Friday), hubby picked me up so i could head to the hospital for my first Bladder Instill treatment, got checked into admitting, they told me to go to the 4th floor and a nurse will meet me there, What an amazing nurse she was, she knew i was nervous so she chatted a lot to me, told her how awesome she was. I got the treatment done and the procedure wasn't to painful, the recovery after wasn't to bad, but i was mentally and physically exhausted because i worked all day and we are getting right into the actual hands on training and it exhausts me.

I got home around 4:30, i then went to bed to rest up, Brooke had Destiny come over at 6:30 for a sleepover ( they are taking turns every weekend for a sleepover here or Destiny's house). I am so glad Brooke has a friend like her here.

It was also pay day, felt good to get a cheque again

 We all watched the hockey game, the Bruins didn't win :( makes me sad and nervous at the same time because it isn't the time for them to be losing, not much longer left to play, so wake up Bruins.

Saturday: I slept in really late, its to embarrassing to write here, then i had a crazy bad head ache maybe from to much sleep, but it went away.

Andrew and I went to get some groceries, then i went to see Big Wedding with my friend Nicole, it was an hilarious movie, was nice to hang out with her.

Came home and had a craft time with my sister via face time, makes me miss her and my babies so much more.

Tried to go to bed rather early but off course i couldn't sleep so i got up to watch some Big Brother which i am now addicted to... love it

Sunday: Mother's Day- the day when this Momma does nothing but get herself ready for church and get Brooke ready off course, but i don't cook or clean. 

We had a beautiful Mothers Day service this morning, Sunday School was cut down because of the presentations upstairs, They gave us a beautiful coffee cup, plants, books, I made a presentation to our Pastor's wife, gave her flowers and read her a poem titled "Our Pastor's wife"- she was surprised, love that woman so much. 

Brooke got me the following:

 

This one she made me in school: It says she loves when we spend time together, when i talk about her on my blog it makes her smile ( she reads here, Hi Baby Girl) and how she loves me, I love home made gifts like this from the heart ♥, no flowers or chocolate could ever give ya the feeling that this does. 

 

Plant on the left she made for me at day care, middle is the mug i got from the church, plant she made for me in sunday school with an adorable verse on it. ♥

We dressed in purple and white today, love this kiddo more then words can ever say, she is so perfect and it is a joy to be her momma ♥ 

They made me pancakes and bacon for lunch which is exactly what i wanted, and it was so nice to not have to do dishes, cook or clean today, although i did fold some laundry, we need clothes after all:p

We did go for ice cream before bed as well.

Hope all of you Mothers had an awesome Mother's Day. 

Mothers Day

Happy Mothers Day to my most amazing Mother.

Wish we lived closer today Mom, but i know you are reading here so have a great day and thank you for all the things you do for me each and every day
It is hard to find the words to tell you exactly how i feel

Dear Mom

I want to say so many things;

I don't know how to start.

I want to capture and describe

The feelings of my heart.

But words are so inadequate

To tell you how I feel

That scarcely any thing I say

Will my True thoughts reveal.

Just let it now suffice to say

That deep inside I know

My love for you is something

That I never will outgrow.

Your many special traits will always

In my heart combine

In such a way that you alone

A perfect mom define.

Your warmth and caring are the traits

That I am proudest of.

My future's brighter through

The fine example of your love.

Mom and my Brother dancing at his high school graduation 

Mom, Brooke and I 4 years ago. 

Thanks Mom,

I love you